There goes another year...The last time I updated my journal was on September 30th, 2012, exactly one year ago. Not much has changed, but then again, almost everything seems different.
I've been thinking about so many things lately. I remembered something, a few words that I wrote in a previous journal, in August, 2011:
I'm scared of turning 18... It's like, I want to turn 18 and grow up, but at the same time, I don't. It's driving me crazy... o.O Also, when school starts, I'll be in 12th grade, which is the last year of high-school... I have a huge exam at the end of this year, after which I need to apply to a college... I need to find a job....
It's like... life is finally going to happen... and I'm scared as hell ...
Talking about things that have changed. I aced that exam, well I almost did. I am now entering my second year of college, doing things I love doing. I even got a job a few months back, which allowed me to have my own money and some sense of freedom, even though I still live with my mom and sister.
*Also, I've dyed my hair orange, and in a short time, it will be green.*
The life I was talking about back then has happened. And it's not that big of a deal. At least not anymore.
The thing that hasn't changed is my 'fear/excitement'
for the future. I am still scared of growing up, of turning 20. I mean, turning 20 it's much more of a bigger deal than turning 18, statement I'll probably laugh at when I'll turn 30. But for now, it seems like everything I do, in present time, is more important, and more awesome (since I haven't used that word yet, and it makes me fell old ) than anything else.
I am saving up to get a camera, a good one, so I'll be able to upload my work here, since most of them are a lot bigger than my scanner. I don't know when I'll manage to do that, but I hope it's soon enough. Till then, I'll just keep things up like this.
Thank you if you read this far, if you didn't, that's okay, too. I had fun just writing about it.
I'll be off to work in a couple of hours, tomorrow I'll have college as well, so I'll be super
busy. I can say that I'll be more active here, but I always say that and then disappear for half a year, so I wont say that. Even if I'm not active, I still log in everyday and check your works, I always do.
I think that should be it. I ranted for far too long.
See you all later
*I won't upload the awesome list of awesomeness -group list- now, but I will in the next journal. If you wish to check it out, it's in the previous journals.*